I’ve always been an extremely neat and tidy person, so if my clothes were to be dirty, it would throw everything off. Why? It just would. I have learned to accept this. I first realized that this was a fear of mine as a child when my grandma was babysitting my siblings and I. I don’t remember what spilled on my shirt; however, I remember that it was smack dap right in the middle for everyone to stare at. I asked my grandma if I could go change my shirt and she said no because we weren’t going anywhere and she didn’t want me to get another shirt dirty. I guess she did not know how much stress this stain was causing me. After being told no, I then proceeded to get a wet wash cloth, hid behind a chair, and starting scrubbing furiously, hoping that it would magically disappear. My grandma found me soon enough and said I could go change, which I immediately did. Why didn’t I just go change in the first place? Why did I have to ask for my grandma’s permission? I don’t know.
Today, I would simply go change without asking anyone. That would just be silly. My family may make fun of me for how much laundry I have, but that is fine by me. I’ll fold all the clean laundry my mom dumps on the couch, even if it were to be a mountainous pile, which it normally is considering we have seven people in my house. I know those clothes are clean, and believe it or not, that makes me happy.